Life after babyloss – eleven years ago  life changed forever. My baby boy, who was three days old , needed heart surgery to save his life. He had already had surgery when he was 6 hours old and he had been heavily medicated since then. The surgery was meant to be straight-forward but it was heart surgery on a tiny 3 day old baby, how straightforward could it be? We went into intensive care early to see our boy and to speak to the surgical team. I wasn’t able to cuddle him but I said my goodbyes. He opened his eyes and he smiled at me, despite his nurse saying he shouldn’t be able to be that responsive because of his meds. This was the last time I saw him alive and it’s a brief moment that will stay with me forever. Life after losing a baby has been a challenge in so many ways, it’s hard to put it all into words. In the beginning it was just getting up and getting through the …